Written By Left Behind Father - Shane I.  Shane is newly LBP and this was his first protest.

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4am, getting ready for Tokyo. This will be my 1st time meeting with others who have lost their baby/child or children in a system which in my mind is inhuman. My thoughts are running now as I walk to the train.  I am thinking synchronicity, these people I meet today will have some sort of information or maybe can tell why Japan feels it is alright to abduct children and inflict emotional, psychological trauma on other humans, and that Japan feels children have no rights to know mama or papa.

On the shinkansen now and thinking about today. Crying and wondering how today will help me see my baby. I am starting to feel a little stronger now, because every thought in why I am doing this is for my baby Ai chan and others who cannot hold, hug, play or say `I love you` to their children.

In Tokyo now and walking to the meeting place. My emotional state is starting to burn inside.  There is one man sitting near the theater.  The look on his face brought tears to my eye’s as I look in front of him a picture of his baby girl on 2 big A3 photos. This is what it is all about. I stopped to get my head on straight for a moment then I walked over to him.

He watches me walking towards him, smiles from ear to ear.  He  walked towards me, offering is hand and `Hello, I am Yoshida, I am left behind` when I heard this I used everything I could not to cry, I simply said, `Hi there` he said `are you a supporter?` I said, `No, I just got left behind`.

This was the point I realized this problem is at least an international disgrace in the eyes of the world, and now the realization is that I am a real victim with 1000`s of others. We talked for 10 minutes and then a reporter arrived along with others. Other reports can and the film crew from the movie, From the Shadows. As I looked around I could see and feel, I am now with foreigners and Japanese people who are supporting us.

This event when on and more people come, many photos interviews, smiles, hugs and everybody saying, `its OK, we are here for you and if you want to talk here’s my number`, powerful stuff. Within one hour I was looking at many people and many photos of children whom have been abducted. I had to sit down and take in all in as I was becoming overwhelmed.

As I sat down, I was looking around and noticed 2 police cars and police walking over to the organizers, I was thinking this is interesting. Well the police came in force, and after a short time, we started to march thought the streets of Tokyo. We walked down the main streets holding the photos so the Japanese could see our babies were abducted by one of their own.

I notice that a lot of the Japanese would look, up, down, left or right but not look at the picture of your baby. It was like we did not exist. I now see some of the Japanese though clear eyes and they know what Japan is doing is wrong.  They are associated with it, because they are Japanese and accept that there is no other way.

During the march we were directed a different way and the march ended early. I don’t know why. At the park where we finished we talked exchanged numbers emails, strategies and thoughts for ideas on getting more support. Now I feel I am not along and that there are people who have gone thought many years of this same fight and not just foreigners, Japanese people too, Men and Women.

On returning back to Kashihara city at 9.15pm, I sat down and reflected the day. I started crying but not for me, my tears were for all the babies and children who have been abducted and who have their basic human rights taken away from them.

I think tonight, somewhere in this world tonight, lies a child who is lonely and scared a child who has no home with Mama or maybe Papa to call theirs. Somewhere in this world tonight, lies a child who is afraid of tomorrow,  that child has lost their no right to heal their sorrows. Right here in this house of mine, I have a room all ready, but is empty. Right here in this house of mine, I have love that is steady, right here in this house of mine, I am waiting for that baby girl, right here in this house of mine, is room to add that joy, happiness, loving kindness and compassion.

I believe somewhere tonight my baby Ai chan cannot you hear my cries. Ai chan can not see how hard I try. Where she is, Ai chan does not share this pain I feel. Where Ai chan is she can not hear me call, I love you.

Sometimes I feel it will never end! Sometimes I feel like I’m losing it all! Sometimes I cry at night for hours! Sometimes I wonder when I will get to see you,  how badly I want to get to hold you, hug you play with you, kiss you.

When will it come, Where will I be, What will I do, Will I start to cry,  Will I be forced to laugh, Will all of the pain instantly die, what about all the time we have lost now?

If the Government of Japan changed and did the righteous and most human thing to do and understand this inhuman pain and suffering, then I can be stronger, I Can bold, I can surpass the waiting, I can hold, hug, play and say I love you to my baby in person, I can ease these crying, I can sleep more, I can stop with fight inside my head.

My pray to all, I am strong, but I am not invincible. I am smart, but I am no Einstein. I am brave, but I still have many fears. I am happy, but I still shed tears. I need you to stay by my side. Only you can make me complete. If you take my imperfections, and guide me through, there is nothing I can’t do. You are my savoir, you are my rock, you are my strength, and I am one of your flocks. I am down on my knees, and I am crying out to you. Please Lord, help me see this through.